My name is Angela, 31 years old and my mother was diagnosed with colon cancer last February 2002. She passed away in November of 2002 at the age of 57. She always told us, my two brothers and I, that she had a feeling she would die at the age of 57, but what do you say to someone who says that? I wrote a poem for my mother. It isn't the best of poems, but it is a tribute for my mother. I love her and miss her terribly, I think because of the type of relationship we had I will always feel heartbroken that my mother and I could not have the mother and daughter relationship we both wanted, but never were able to have.
We weren't the best of friends,
didn't see eye to eye.
We could barely get along,
always in a fight.
You were always in my business,
nosey as can be.
I hate you a for so long,
and felt you hated me.
Then, I grew up,
having kids of my own.
Still listening to you judge me
apparently I am doing things wrong.
You tell me you have cancer,
I knew right then.
I wouldn't have my mom forever,
she'll be gone.. but when.
I became your caregiver,
something I never thought I'd do.
I thought you hated me,
I thought I hated you.
Cancer brought us closer together,
but still we were apart.
Nothing could bridge the space between us,
except for love in our heart.
We didn't always show it,
but it was there.
We never even new how much,
Until the end was here.
Mom, I love you so much, I apologize for all the pain I have caused you. I would give anything to have you back in my life. Until we meet again. God Bless.
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